Who is the lucky one?

I am not sure who is the lucky one in this life. The one who was born in the rich family? May be. Or the one who was born in the poor family? That could be. In the matter fact, I think the lucky person is the one who has tasted the taste of life. The one who learnt how life has been through.

Some of my friends may think or did think I am crazy. Sometime I write a poem, sometime I write some crazy stuff, sometime I act like a wise, and sometime I sing a song and post it into my youtube, facebook or my blog. I don't know what was going on in the meanwhile but all I have thought about was that I don't have much time to live in this world. And I can't guarantee how long could I live my life. Because life has so many dishes for me and I believe there are so many dishes that I have to taste in my life before I am going back. Of course, I have tasted the life without father, temple boy, Construction boy, being alone without any friends, and some more crazy dishes that I could consider them as my appetizer and now I am learning how to cook one dish call being a responsible son of his own family or in brief " Paying back to family." Yeh, there are so many more dishes that I have to, that I eager to taste it. I know I have only one chance in one life so as long as I still breath I will do my best to taste those left. Even it cost me a life I would love to taste it I just want to know how worth it is. Although I knew life would be this way, but most of the time I lost my courage. I felt so tired to go on. I just want to leave these things behind me, and go on my own way where I think I should belong to. From one step to the other I feel more heavier, and sometime I could not even lift it up to step forward.

I remembered we were talking about life with Mr Peter Echavia Soria last week. " It does not matter for the one who start from zero and make their path to the top ten then he fell off, because he knew how does it feel being in zero and he could start it over again, but it could be feel much worse for the one who just begin with ten and fell down to zero because he has no experience about being in zero." This is what he has said to me. I loved what he was saying. Yeah, it is true, but most of us could not accept the reality whenever they reach the top and suddenly just fall down to the root. And most of us just don't want to face the feeling being in zero again when they have already passed it, and we refuse to go back and live with that thing again. What do you think about this? Do you agree with what I am trying to say. I have no idea about that as well..hehe..

Alright, all I wanted to do is to put all of these paragraph together under one umbrella but the more I write the more it getting mess up. I wish you could see what I am trying to say here. Thank for reading my essay...Have a nice time.