The Story of Mine

Some of us after we graduated from our university we seem like we know where would we go. It seems to be clear for most of us that something we could do after graduated. But for the man without any experience like me it seems like a little raft floating in the middle of the ocean finds nowhere to go, but spinning around itself. Here is the story of mine after my university life.

It was a beautiful afternoon, 4^th July 2012. I was in the office with the other three persons. One lady behind my back left side was busy with her office work. The gentleman behind my back right side was also talking on the phone about his work and one of his hand was rolling down his mouse to correct his work on his computer. Whereas the other guy is sitting in front of me preparing his papers to interview. " Do you speak Thai?" he began. " Yeah, I do." my short answer. " And can you speak English?" he continued. " Yeah, I can." again my short reply. "That is great, so shall we begin the interview now?" he asked with his smile. Instead of saying a word I nodded my head telling him that I am ready. First he let me to fill on the paper about my background, my education, and read something about the work. "Do you know why do you come here?"the man asked me. Without any hesitation I pick up my answer " I come here to apply for work." "And do you know what kind of are you applying for?"another question. " Yeah, sir I do. I am applying for a sale man." the only answer I have in my mind. He smile and pick up another question " Do you have any experience about this job before.?" I honestly replied " No, sir." He nodded his head as a sign that he has got my answer. So he starts to tell me something about being a sale man " Being a sale man you have to be able to speak and know how to sell your product as well as to make your clients interested about your product and buy it from your company. Do you think you can do that?" I was listening to him without expecting that he would ask me at this time. " Yeah, sir....I... can do." I replied to him. (The thing that always running across my mind at that time was to think about working for his company. I asked myself how could I do this work. I don't have any experience. I am not a good speaker. I am not a pla pla pla.....)All of these things just pop up into my mind, and I can't control it. But I have tried my best to sit with confidence in front of him, and listen to what he is saying.

The man picked up another paper from his bag and show it to me. Those paper appeared in front of my eyes with the information about the product; the name of the product; where they grow it, and how they grow it. As I have remembered, the product is all about the health care. It seems like a tea or something organic. So when the people drink that it will help them to clean the bacteria in the body; make the body healthy, and so on. It sounds so interesting to me, and yeah I think it is the right job for me. But my feeling at that time is so different from now, very very different. I feel like I am walking against the water stream. It is something like I tried to hold myself back, or more like a baby whose finger used to be burn by a candle so it feels afraid to touch the candle again if you know what I mean. My ears keep listening to the man who is describing and explaining me about the product. Whereas my mind is working against my ears.  

 Half an hour passed by, it's coming very close to the end. Mr Boon Piaw Chao the manager of the company who was sitting behind my right back side put down his phone and his pen. Then he turn his face to us with his question " So, how is thing going on? " I am telling him about our company, and our product." quickly replied by his staff the man who interviews me. " I see." Mr. Boon's answer, and he continued " Can I ask you something?" The question is turning to me now. " Do you love this job?"Mr Boon question. If you were me what would you answer to this question. Suppose you have tried to find a job, and you really need a job because your money in your pocket is getting smaller day by day. Would it be a Yes or No? You say it. So I thought about two minutes and then I gave him a very short answer. My answer was "No". You may think I am crazy, but please listen to my reason. The reason I answered that way, because I think that as long as I don't feel like that job or love it. It seems like it useless for me to work. As in the book they said " Love what you do, if you don't it just wasted your time." Although I knew my money is getting smaller, but I have to stand with my heart, and my conscience. I knew it is hard to find a job, but it doesn't mean we can't or we will not get a job. After giving him the answer. He gave me a feedback very similar to what I have thought in my mind this early. " Yeah, this is what I want "Yes" or "No". I know you just graduated, and you have no any experience about this work as I have read your application and your college friend (my friend who suggest me to apply for this job he is my Laos friend.) I'd love to give you a chance to gain experience, but it is useless. It depends up on yourself. You are good because you are educated; you can speak Thai, and you can speak English. But the matter is in yourself. Ask yourself " Do you love this job or not." and you've got the answer. Therefore no matter how much time or chance I give you it is useless as long as you don't feel comfortable or love the job. So it is mean you will not work for us. "  Hence, this is the end of my interview.   

After the interview, we said good bye to each other. I walked out of the room with my friend's bag ( mine was big so I borrowed my friend.) heading to the main road and go back to my room. It was a very very interesting thing in my life. Yeah, I failed the interview, but I gain more experience for my life, and I am not disappointed for myself for not getting the job or feeling upset about the company. I would like to say thank you to Mr Boon Piaw Chao (his facebook account because I don't know his real name) for his advice and feedback. The reason I wrote this article is to share my experience to person may walk in the same path like I do; to the one who has no any experience at all after he/she finished their school. There are so many job out there as well as around you. The only thing and the main matter is you and yourself. I would like you to contemplate yourself and find yourself who you really are. You may heard this sentence " What do you want to be in the future?". It is so simple, isn't it? But in the reality it is the most important one. " Life is about to create yourself." I hope my writing could be useful to those who is facing the difficulties like I did. At the end of my writing, let me apologize for any mistake that could be happened in both my word or sentence. I haven't write in English almost a year so it could be more mistakes happen in my writing. I am happy to share this to all of you, and I would be more happy to see your comment or your feedback. Kh Samnang!