Hi Dad, how are you doing up there?

It is 1:30 AM here, and I just finished the movie. Do you know what that movie is? It is called “The Pursuit of happiness.” I never thought that this movie is such an inspiring movie to me. I just want to watch it again and again after I saw it. I don’t care what the other think about it, but for me I would say there is no word to describe how wonderful it was.

Dad!... I just want to tell you I MISS MISS MISS you more and more when I see this movie. It just reviews the whole picture when you were here with us. I realized why I am hardly to see your smiling, but when you smile the whole world was so beautiful. I realized why you hit me when I am being disrespect to sister and brother. I realized why you tell me not to cry when you hit me. I realized why you spank my ass when I speak impolite to elder. I realized why you hit my hand whenever I do a bad writing, and why you hit me when I do not do my homework. Dad! You should not have left us early I miss your words as well as your stick. Even we didn’t talk much to each other when you were here, but you have given us so much feeling, and the things that had been with me all the time, and it will be last for my entire life.

Since you have left us your angel was working very hard to bring us up. Let me tell you one thing Dad you have found the most beautiful girl on this earth.  You know what! You are the lucky guy, and I am so jealous at you. I hope I could find the beautiful one like yours for my partner life. She told me many things about you, and how you both meet. That was so romantic. From the beginning when you were gone I never see her smile, and her face looks serious all the time. I know I have been trouble her a lot. However, right now her smile started to grow again. You should not have left your angel alone. Don’t you know how hard she was? You should be proud of her.

What can I say? I think without those fires, and hammer this little knife won’t be sharp and it may useless. It just likes the tree which could not grow better without sun and water. It is so ashamed to talk about this thing to you now, and I know it is late. I should have talked to you early. But that was so soon I have not prepared for that happen. I remember you words “Even one second of my life I won’t let my children to work for the other. (In the past time in my village most of the poor family they allow their children to work for the other to get some money to help their own family) ” And I can still feel your deep breath at night even at that time I didn’t understand why you do that. I can still hear your voice whenever you talk and I put my ear on your back. I can still remember when we walk to our farm you put me on your shoulder. And I remember one word you told me “Being a country boy you have to learn how to swim because I am not gonna help you all the time.” I remembered in the morning during the rainy season that I was sitting on the dike while you are plowing. These scenes will never ever go away from my memory. I have put it in my folder.

Oh Dad don’t you worry about your angel anymore, because I will look after her, and take care of her. You can count on me. Thank Buddha for letting me to be your son. I am so proud of you Dad. You are my hero, and I love you Dad.